Out of the World FANTASIES

I've thinking about auditioning for a while already.
Last year i went to the SM auditions here in Hawaii and i was seriously nervous that my during my audition my voice totally gave up on me.
TT___TT I've regretted ever since.
I felt like such a failure that i acutally gave up on my dreams and gained weight

I still want to achieve my dreams but to me it seemed impossible after that audition.
I felt ugly and worthless.
But even though i stopped singing consistently I still have that urge to still forward and record some clips and that urge to become an idol still has not gone away.

Hearing about this years audition i really want a fair chance to showcase my Talent, but it seems like no major entertainment company, such as Sm JYP YG has been consistently coming to Hawaii.

Hawaii i feel has TONS of ASIANS.
NOT JOKING...lol
My school....at least 90% are asians.
either it be Chinese, Japanese, Koreans, MIX.

I'm planning to lose 20lbs...i know that sounds very desperate but at least I have that determination to look like a Victoria Secret model :DD Haha.
Plan on good songs which showcases my vocals?
Suggestions? Chinese, English, & Korean.
Try and work on my confidence and Stuttering D:
lol
If i have all of those...I'm sure i can do well and have that confidence.
:)
okay...Done with my ranting.
BTW...

I'm starting to have major crush on this celebrity: NICHKHUN. Haha
I'm beginning to feel those middle school memories flow back xD
When you have a crush on every single guy and celebrity and get all hyped up about ONE DAY you're going to get MARRIED and live happily ever after with them. Yeah Babee! B)
Well, I'm having one of those moments and I'm 17! :O
How mature of me....-.-;

But a girl can Dream right?! lol
The only thing I can do on this tiny island is to admire his individuality is through Youtube <_<; lol

Dads Dayoff: Chinatown

Today was my s-dads day off...Which meant we're going to Chinatown for lunch. I love Chinatown, not because of their "wonderful" smell and look but because of their food and different clashes of asian cultures. I remember when i used to have tons of day offs on monday and I would use those mondays to accompany my mom on her grocery shopping. I would find new discoveries every week and they were always CHEAP. ;D


Before we went to Ctown i had to go to the park to watch my little brother and sister. The minute we got there...It was like a circus. They were bouncing and jumping everywhere. -.-
They scared the heck out which made them leave..Heh...

La Push~
La Fall awwwww~ T.T
In the Car. B)

I <3>
Auntys Ctown Store



YUM :D
We went to home depot and looked at flowers but could not find any.
So we drove to Best Buy to find my BluRay Twilight :D
And finally...I found it lol
Then we went to go get a drink

Finally, Spriiiiing Break!

It was my birthday 2 weeks ago and i got a new camera!! yay! I exchanged by Sony camera which was sucky for a sexy canon G10. I'm in love with it already. It takes the best pictures! :D Well today was the start of Spring Break but guess what? I still have tons of work from my AP Classes, especially APUSH...-.-; 60 typed full pages...each page representing each decade for economically, socially, politically, and individually until the mid 1900's. Great.....T__T Well today after school we went to catch the bus to Ala Moana because thats the only day we can spend with Rina since she's leaving Today for Japan. lol

Gap, I don't even know why we went in there. lol

Ooooo....Cakes :D. La palme do'r? is that what it's called? lolThat one looks really good @.@

lol Rina and her BF

lmao Mayuko and Reina.

Me and Reina got both an Earl Grey Tea Jelly w/ Milk. Yum :)haha Mayuko.

Taking the Bus hooome.

Well i went to Burger counter with my family to eat last night.Oh, Yes! :D